Vlad666

so yeah,... you fucking left finally and I am here fucking trying to destroy whatever I have left from you.. yeah.. lots of garbage.. I honestly wanted to die stupid me but not even death wanted me drank enough bottles to kill any normal human snorted as much shit as I could until it bled fucking close to shooting up.. but not a lost cause.. shit I am indestructible.. you tried to kill me I tried to kill me drugs tried too.. wtf am I still doing here? life is really fucking boring I guess I will keep trying.. nothing else to do. heart is a fucking waste but the again having no heart makes me want to vomit fucking irony

sometimes time slow down.. and sometimes there is nothing around no light no wind it's this time that I feel closer to the end and I see her with the black wings smiling at me.. it's been too long since I am here left alone by myself you left and never came back and I know this old tale I am no longer waiting for you to see me.. I have lost hope and I am fine with that.. my heart has died.. the only thing left is the ache of pain not too strong... bearable.. but why do I need this?? it angers me to carry this weight if only you would have come here to me.. things would be different but here I am talking to a ghost t

Here we are.. time passed by things have grown and changed I am in a different place the past seems so distant and I finally rejoice on CHANGE I see the sun it hits my face I smile but my eyes burn and I am crying you gave your life for me you died for my plans I am evil I have destroyed purity and love left myself in threads.. all for a dream my destiny my own self righteous desires... I wish I could have met you I will never do so maybe after I take the last flight and you will be there..

You have presented yourself to me to us appeared like the first sun's ray piercing the night cutting the dark in half filling it in... you appear like an angel with my so many calls for you now you are here with your warmth you will melt the world change it only you you are near you are here.. your blood runs your heart beats.. and yet I will kill you and deny you and throw you away... I will destroy you and turn you into none dispose you into the void and life goes on on its cold and dark path never ending life eternal pain detached... I am nothing going nowhere I am dead I have denied Life

my words are the ultimate escape time withers and i die slowly the vanity expires and i remain naked to the core simplicity now it make sense. was I late in this sick game? all that I hate I am becoming.. years of pain of tears of shredded blood I wish I was nothing I wish I was them empty void hollow as I feel now.. I escape the inescapable the empty that is me I kill light I kill me.. now it stops the fear of the end... I wont hide anymore.. a plan is made an archetype of darkness eternal of nothing... the place I am heading where all must go where I am... who knew me? and how real it is?? we are all j

life goes on the clock borrowed it lasts a sigh and I go on on and on the world a monster of energy consuming everlasting never ending and my black heart engulfs the whole suddenly it's just me the world fades just my pain caused by me expelled by you every 1000s I kiss my wounds savour the flesh I'm alive I can endure the pain I've learned to love it no matter how much I fool myself it stays with me like my shadow following me throughout existence and you appear I give you all you give it all but it soon withers it dies.. and we end up right where it started right at the beginning the world spinning ou

I listen to the voice distant as my dreams.. the bridge the longest road I realize I've been walking it alone... and alone I will reach the point.. these last steps have crumbled the road what happened? I sit there still frozen what is the next step? love have denied me a long time ago my rotten heart has condemned me born dead born in pain this last tears for you... now I fade.. past sight away from the world thank you...